A Few Random Thoughts

1) THis is the picture that is going on my dad's mug for Father's Day. Yes, I know it is way late, but I had a grand plan and a cool mug and it has all fallen through. So now he gets the traditional Dad Day mug, but this year it has THREE kids on it except for just one. Very cool!
2) Jordan fell asleep ont he floor tonight. What makes this worse is that she was without bear. So she fell asleep...without bear...on the floor. She has pretty much outgrown naps except for random ones here and there. On July 4th she was eaten alive by the big country mosquitos at mom's house. I think she has 50 bites. Every once in a while she will tell me she is itchy, but even when she isn't telling me I know she is itchy because she is contantly scratching. constantly. So I had her take some benedryl. I guess the combo of no nap and benedryl did her in. Mental note: No more benedryl if she is already insanely breaking down due to lack of a nap.
3) Today was a rough day. I had some bouts of crying and tears. An almost 4 year old and two 1 year olds is just tough. It would be tough on anyone; there is no way around that. I think that those families who have 10 kids are amazing considering 3 has me pretty nuts. A typical day would go something like this: make Jordan's breakfast, make babies breakfast, while Jordan is eating I wake JW to eat, then wake Micah. Get milk ready for all three. ONce done, they all get milk while I clean up their messes. At some point the dishwasher gets cleaned out so I can refill it with all our empty sippie cups for the day. After breakfast is over the kids fight, er, play for a while and I do whatever needs to be done for 30 min or so until, inevitably, I smell poop. Two babies are up for a diaper change. Then soon after they are down for a nap. Now, if I don't have laundry to fold or a room in need of major cleaning, this first naptime is when I do my quiet time. I try to do this with Jordan so she can see me studying the Bible. She needs to see that happen as often as it can. By the end of quiet time the babies are up. I am lucky if they sleep an hour. I make their sippie of milk and maybe a snack depending on time, get JW up, then Micah. Then they fight, I mean, play. An hour later it is lunch time. I prepare all three lunches, sit all three down to eat. While they eat I clean up the mess made in the kitchen and put dishes in the dishwasher. Then they are all done, so I clean up the mess they made in the living room/dining room. After this, surprisingly, I can sit down for a while. We have a whole hour before nap time. In that hour I will change two more poops and probably wipe a bigger girls bottom after she poops. Naptime comes and I am in hog heaven. Babies go down for 1.5-2 hours of BLISS. Jordan has quiet time in her bedroom; sometimes she falls asleep and sometimes she doesn't. But no matter what, I get time alone. I can fold laundry if I want. Or I can sleep. Usually I sleep. I am awaken by a baby crying. I run to get snacks and milk made for everyone. Give Jordan her milk and snack, go get JW and sit him down for food, go get Micah and sit her down for food. After snack time I clean up the messes (again) and the kids play and fight, fight and play. While they are fighting over the newest plastic Shreck toy I get dinner going and get frustrated because who can cook when you have to break up so many fights? And darnit if JW didn't poop again! Let's hope the sauce doesn't burn while I change him and my eyes burn from the stench of poop. After dinner, things are kind of a blur. Usually everyone goes right into the bathtub. Somehow the kitchen gets cleaned. Scott does that part a lot while I make sure the kids are safe in the tub. After the tub they all get milk, then teeth brushed, then the countdown begins. 1 hour. 30 min. 15 min. 5 min....close enough...bedtime!!!
Somewhere in there we read books to them. Jordan gets the bible read to her at night. I generally read 2-3 books here and there. Micah is a huge bookworm, as is Jordan. All JW wants to do with books is hit somebody with it.
ANyway, today was just one of those days for me. I know all moms have them, but for some reason I feel that the general public feels that I shouldn't have days like this. Afterall, we waited years for these babies. We shouldn't ever have bad days but instead be so thankful for our blessings. *rolleyes* Today was just rough. The kids fought non-stop. I realized that Jordan is about to start pre-K and she still doesn't know her letters/numbers. She can say the ABCs and count, but doesn't recognize them. Bad bad mama! I add to the everyday mommy guilt by feeling guilt over feeling guilty.
4) My friend's mom is dying. She was sent hom today on Hospice care. Kelley is an only child. It breaks my heart. I can't imagine. I put myself in her place and I have 3 brothers who would come mourn as well. I have 3 other brothers to share stories with and grieve with. She is all alone. Please be praying for her. I just can't imagine. It saddens my heart.
5) I sing "Jesus Loves Me" to the babies every night when I am putting them to bed. Today Micah sings "bible" when it comes up, and JW sings "Jesus". Awww. At least they are learning something good from me. I was beginning to worry that all they would learn how to do is scream and clean up. And knowing teens, they probably would fail terribly on the clean up part.